I know Kevin loves me very much & I totally adore that guy as well... but I can't help but feel a little (well, ALOT actually) sad & depressed cuz each time when there's an important event or celebration (i.e. my birthday, Christmas, etc) or something, I'll get disappointed.
Cuz he alwiz gets me something which I don't really like. I know that sounds really petty and all. But knowing he got me things which I deem useless & eyesores, makes me feel as if he's juz wasting his money getting me things I don't want.
Yeah, so you say tell him straight or hint strongly to him what I want right? He still doesn't get the hint and sometimes even if I told him, he would still get the wrong stuff. LOL! Talk about silly guys who don't listen and who think they know it all! :P Male chauvinist pigs!
So now he tells me that he'll give me the money to get me my own presents instead. Ya, I don't mind that cuz it'll sure save alot of headache for him and heartache for me, lol! But I juz feel this relationship lacks creativity & sensitivity. There's no element of surprise here (well, only good surprises are acceptable to me). Every once in a while, I would like to get swept off my feet too by sweet surprises by my guy. But no, it doesn't happen like that in reality, at least not to me! Sigh! Therefore, I dread each birthday, Christmas, dating anniversary, etc now cuz I know I'll juz end up being disappointed.
Yeah, so you say talk to him about these feelings and try to talk it through like every healthy couple do, right? So I did, and still do, and he blows up at my face everytime. He alwiz said & still say I spoil his mood for the day. Like I'm some evil witch who's out to diminish all his happy feelings. I really do not know what to do. I juz feel so sad now.
If he really loves me, he'll be very sensitive to my needs & he'll know what I like & don't like. Well, at least he'll have an inkling to what I like & dislike rite? :P I'm not asking for the stars in the sky or some impossible stuff. Juz the normal bouquet of tulips, or friendship band, or my favorite CDs, or anything girls might like. I juz feel so pathetic now. The tears juz came suddenly. I can't contain myself. I'm gonna sign off now. Bye!
